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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Trying to Stop the Clock

I turn 33 today. 3 and thirty years have crept up to me one year at a time and I hardly noticed them coming. I always thought age is just a number. It is a mindset. And you can beat (old) age with your attitude. Whatever.
I think I can sense the panic now. Just thinking in perspective.
-While I was buying my black Swift in 2007, I was actually rooting for an orange one- flashy, young and bindaas. But the sales guy had vested interests. The black one was on its way as per my prior booking and he did not want to change it. So he showered praises on the black one that me the executive kinds should go for and for good measure he added- Madam, may be the next car could be orange. Now I think in 5 year blocks as far as cars are concerned. And that would mean by the time I buy my next car, I would be "gasp" 37! nearly 40? Not a good idea to remind me that and now I really don't see myself buying orange at 37. Well, the rate at which my mindset is maturing, I probably would go for orange but still, lets not talk about it now. I don't want to think 37. I am thinking 33 only. I am taking it 1 day at time.
-So I want to gift this blog to Ojas & Tejas when they are older- let's say atleast 8 or 10 (they say in movies that at the age of 8 a child can really understand this latent love and get her Dad and long lost love together. By that logic, 8 or 10 is a fair age at which my kids can be made aware of the blog. So that means I would be 40 by the time I gift this blog. Now that sounds heavy! While I am eager to share the blog with my kids, 40! I mean how cool (kewl) will I be at 40! I don't want to think about it. But then life does begin at 40- wow, I can't wait to get at it! "gulp".
-On our first night (cut that, there is no mature content here), instead of some romantic comment, or oohing aahing on the well, flower decoration, the first thing the hubby said was a wistful, world-wisdom remark- just imagine 25 years from now, we will be as old as our parents (give or take a few years), retired, laid back... panic... that is 50, 50 plus atleast. Quiet, Shush, we don't want to talk about it.
The worst thing about marrying a man who is a few minutes younger equal to your age is that if he remarks I am getting old, you cannot even say "you must be getting old, not me".
Speaking of parents, at my age, my Mom was a mother of a 9 year old. And my kids are still in nursery. No no no, I am not competing, I am not thinking that when I will start dreaming of grandkids, I would be, "counting on my fingers", atleast, no no let me count again, it can't be 60 or 60 plus right?
Drifts away counting on fingers and making vile plans of influencing sons to get married really early so that she can look like a "hip hot mamma" when the sons are getting married.

16 comments:

Gauri said...

Happy Birthday Itchy :)

Monika,Ansh said...

Oh dear, i know how u feel. I turned 30 last year & it's been a weird year with me trying on anti ageing products & having all sorts of insecurities
Happy Birthday.... leave the worries for another day & enjoy this day to the fullest. So what are the plans?

Kodi's Mom said...

funny what a birthday can do you do at this age ;)
relax, Itchy, its just another year. for now, enjoy the day! Happy birthday!!

BangaloreMom said...

Happy Budday Itchy!

phoenixritu said...

Happy birthday, and take it from a 46 year old, age is just a number. You are as old as you feel and that makes me about 10 years old

Aditi's Album said...

Happy Birthdya Itchy. Enjoy this day and dont worry abt the future. U'll be a hip hop mamma - irrespective of age.

Mama - Mia said...

happy bday ITW!! :D

just have fun, will ya?? age is indeed just a number! our mum's didnt even notice 30 as a milestone!! we have been watching too many angrezi sitcoms and thinking OMG!! :p

am sure you will hip mamma whenever O and T get married!!

cheers!

abha

Trish said...

Happy birthday Itchy!

the mad momma said...

you're always going to be hip itchy. stop fishing :p

Shobana said...

Happy Birthday Itchy!

Rohini said...

Second MM, hope you had a hip and happy day

Anu said...

I read your blogs regularly...Very Interesting....

A VERY VERY HAPPY B'DAY TO YOU!

Itchingtowrite said...

thanks lovely ladies!! had LOTS of food at barbecue nation for lunch- yummy kababs and evening there was a huge black forest cake which the kids mangled along with me. then a simple meal of noodles/ soup / bread becoz i don't want to slog on my birthday- this rule was self imposed from last year !!

gooddaysunshine said...

Happy birthday!!!

lumi said...

Happy Birthday! I am a year and a half up on you and I have a nearly 15 year old! She makes me feel young and old all at the same time but she says that I'm a pretty cool mom compared to the parents of her friends so it's my little piece of satisfaction I'm going to hang onto for all its worth. And yes, you can tease someone your same age about being old. I am unmerciful about teasing my best friend in Pune about being getting old all the time :) He takes it all in good humor though.

The Inquisitive Akka said...

Belated birthday wishes!I turned 33a week before you and I am yet to become a mommy :)
Hope you had a wonderful day!